Thursday, September 29, 2011

WRETCHED FACELESS FREAK abomination against NATURE my tormenter my tormenter LEAVE ME IN PEACE God DAMN YOU. NOT ev3en my DREAMS provide me wqith SANCTUARY. I killed for you. I KILLED DOZENS for you, I served you Happily and with PRIDE. But I found happiness. I FOUND a Purpise bEYOND you. One single solitary human who was my friend. ONE. I killed for you many, I tried to kill this ONE, but I failed, I failed and I AM HAPPY. HAPPIER NOW THAN WHEN I WAS A PUPPET DANCING ON your STRINGES.
do I not DESERVE SOME Peace? I SerVED you for MONTHS MONTHS MONTHS. I just wanted a small time of PEACVE.
YOU WERE GOD. YOU WERE EVERYTHING YOU MY PUPPETEER WAS MY SOLE PUPROSE OF LIVIGN. NOW I see Thje TRUTNH TRUTH TRUETYHhgh MONSTER DEMON DEVIL. YOU ARE NOT GOD, YOU ARE EVIL, YOU ARE WORSE THAN THE DEVILS OF HELL YOU CURSED FIEND. DAMN YOU DAM YOU DAMN  YOU DAMN YOU DAMN YOU DAMN YOU DAMN YOU DEEEVIL
Now I run I Wi;ll Run FAR I will NEVer LET YOu or the other PUIPPETS Take ME. NEVER. My SurviVAl is An INSULT TO YOU. I SPIT ON YOUR DIVINITY. I WILL NOT DIE. I WILL NOT DIE. YOU AND YOURS WILL NOT KILL ME.
That Cold. That Heat. It is always following me. It is always here. I still hear their whispers inside my head. I still feel the Icy chill of his hand, the glow of his crimson eyes within the fog. His touch burns like the flames of the deepest abyss of hell, his eyes of amber always watching my thoughts my mind my self. All for the Faceless God. Everything for him. Our lives are his and in his power to take away on a whim. The shadows watch me, and I feel him everywhere. Beside me when I sleep, behind me as I walk... Within me as I live and breathe. I hate it. I hate him. I hate him so much...

10 comments:

  1. Star. Good for you, keep fighting.
    Where are you? Get in touch, let me find you let me help you, please!
    You don't have to do this alone.

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  2. CIFER will not survive the week. this we promise you. his successor is nearly ready.

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  3. Accept that He is not a god and you will hate him much less.

    It works for me! Come back to us, Morningstar. We need people like you.

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  4. @Elaine Curse you.

    @Valtiel Do not replace which is not dead yet. Morningstar can still come back. He can still find peace with his family. You are not helping.

    Shooter. You know better than this. Come now, tell me where you are. I will come and pick you up. It is not too late. You can find your pride again.

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  5. Heheh Morningstar's pretty cute when he's teetering on the brink of self-destruction.

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  6. ... Come on Star. Keep going, keep fighting. If I could outrun Him, so can you.

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  7. I'm free. That's all that matters.

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  8. "I thought I was climbing out,
    But It's dragging me down.
    What's hidden here with me?
    Thought I was alone,
    But It pulls me deeper.
    Now I can't escape."

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  9. C'mon Star, embrace the fucking Archangel.

    You know you want to.

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